An inner Valhalla, transforming Nirvana of a place

For most of my life, I admit, I have viewed sensitivity as a bane … a curse that must somehow be endured for the remainder of however long I wind up living.  There were times in my life (when I was a teen) where I even had suicidal thoughts because the idea of SO many years being THIS sensitive just seemed like something I could never endure.

I remember revealing to my best friend in high school that I knew things about other people without them ever having to tell me.  I endured endless mood swings because I now know that I pick up the energies of everyone I come across.  As a teenager, I just thought all of those feelings were my own … and that I was just that messed up of a person; that I had no control over my own emotions.

My twenties and much of my thirties consisted of a strange dichotomy of both embracing my sensitivities (pursuing a career in music, writing, and composing) and numbing myself to my sensitivities in whatever form of anaesthetization I could find.  Talk about a battle of opposites!  Trying to be as blazingly OPEN as I could possibly be … and then WHAM, just slam the door on it as soon as I was done being creative.

Now … I have started to acknowledge my sensitivity as the gift that has brought me to the Path of Englightenment (not to say that I have arrived at such a place, but rather that I have embraced the journey as my life).  What always seemed like something I had to try and control, or manage … I now have simply set free.  My sensitivity knows no bounds.  Sometimes I get caught up in my old ways of thinking or doing things, but it very quickly becomes apparent … because I am just THAT sensitive.  If I was NOT that sensitive, I wouldn’t be able to follow this Path.  My eyes would be blind, and my ears deaf, my senses dead to the subtle Guidance I now see all around me.

If you find yourself struggling in such a way … know that you are being led to a place that is special, and beautiful.  A place that others, who don’t have your sensitivities, cannot even conceive of … where you commune with your Creator at the deepest depths of your expandingly sensitive soul.

When you get there?  You wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world.  So have hope … and never give it up.

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This post came as a result of meditating on my prior post, “The Sensitivity Curse/Gift“.

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Religion4All is an idea: that every human being (no matter their race, religion, sexuality, social status, lifestyle, or any other possible factor) is LOVED by God; just … as … they are.

We all are loved by God, and NO religion or person has a monopoly on it. Every single person on this planet is loved equally by God … SO many are cut off from God because they are told they don’t belong. God loves everyone … we ALL are beautiful creations … we don’t need to cringe when we hear the words “God”, or “religion”, or their judgments … God LOVES us all!

There is no requirement to change in order to be LOVED by God, or to LOVE God. God is LOVE, and LOVE is God … period. There is no one who God loves more than anyone else … there are only those who choose to LOVE more … to love God more, and consequently then to love each other more. In doing so, we grow closer to God … and know God.

By opening our hearts, and minds to God (free of boundaries like religion, or social trends); by LOVING God … we are exactly where we are meant to be. If we maintain that openness, never allowing any person or event to make us close our hearts, we will be guided by God to be who we are meant to be.

In that space of openness we can then live a life of LOVE, and be guided to where we are meant to be … forever in LOVE.

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